Tuesday, December 9, 2014

Day +28

One minute you are nearing the edge of the woods and the next you find yourself in the heart of it!  Seriously, when is this roller coaster going to end?!  It gets harder and harder to witness Addie struggling on this road to recovery! Praise Jesus for my little fighter and her strong will!!  Watching Addie lie here working to breathe is a reminder of how tough she is... She just pushes through it, refusing to let anything overtake her!!  It makes my heart hurt that I can't help her, physically help her!!  I feel at times so helpless... We as Mothers are designed to protect our children!!  We are supposed to comfort them when they are sick and make everything ALL better!!  The moment that child is born you will do anything for it, sacrifice everything... And here I sit in a hospital room watching my baby girl struggle and there is nothing I can physically do to help her!!  Talk about feeling helpless... But then the Lord steps in and reminds me that I am not alone and I am far from defenseless, with Him all things are possible!!!  What I have the power to do is pray... Pray that He will heal her, comfort her and continue to breathe strength into her little body!!  
When I am weak, He is strong... Thank heavens for this!!  Please Jesus get Addie past this, get her HOME with us... Allow me to be her mother, to raise her and to LOVE her endlessly!! 

Lots of prayers for tonite and into tomorrow... Prayers that her lung function will improve and the fluid in her chest to vanish!!  Prayers that her body will once again be able to maintain itself and regulate the fluid it requires!!  Tomorrow if Addie's lung function has not improved she will have to have a bronchoscopy... This procedure in itself is pretty minimal but because Addie is not a "average" patient everything comes with a heightened risk!!  It will take place in the OR and she will likely have to be intubated once again!  They will get a sample of the fluid in her lungs and determine of there is an infectious component causing all of this!  Everyone is searching for answers and I am just praying it will all go away... That once again He will make her well!!  Please Jesus give these doctors your wisdom, please don't allow there to be anything missed.  Please give us clarity as to what is causing this and what needs to happen to make her better!!  Thank you for always listening Lord Jesus and for the peace you place in my heart!! 

Thank you all for walking along this road with us... For your continual prayers!!  Your loving words fill my heart with hope and love!!! I will say it again... Hands down, best team in town!!  Go Team Addie!

"Do not fear, for I am with you; do not be afraid, for I am your God.  I will strengthen you; I will help you; I will hold on to you with my righteous right hand."
Isaiah 41:10

"I have heard your prayer; I have seen your tears.  Look, I will heal you."
2 Kings 20:5

6 comments:

  1. Love sent your way today and always

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  2. Continuing to pray Psalm 91:11 for Addie - For He (God) WILL command His angels concerning Addie to guard her in all her ways.

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  3. Our family continues to PRAY for the HAND OF JESUS to HEAL little Addie....to get her home, and to give PEACE to both of you!! Peace be with you this night! Praying for MIRACLES!!

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  4. Reed and Amanda,
    One of my grandkid's favorite songs is 'I Have a Giant of a God' (http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=uO-PeBRhnlU), from the Beginner's Bible video of David and Goliath.' (http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=jeDNkUlrVqQ). The pictures in link to the song video are not from the story, so that is mostly for just listening. I find this song playing in my mind several times a day as I think of so many friends who are facing giant trials in their lives. I hope it is as encouraging to you as it has been for me. We're praying for you every day. Our small group is praying, and many others.
    Hold On! (http://m.youtube.com/watch?v=dAsEPdTvaNc)
    Take care, Becky Anderson

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  5. When you and Reed are tired and you can't think of another word to pray, know that there is an army that continues to cover your sweet little girl. You are not praying alone. You are one strong Mama... with a strong, strong God. Thanks for keeping us updated. I don't know your sweet little one well, but I can tell how amazing she is. Our family will continue to pray for you all. -Emily Hoffert

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