Addie is doing wonderfully. She is tolerating the medicine for the trial great, so far no noteable side effects... thank you Jesus! She is having a blast in school and we have enjoyed some wonderful time as a family. It is crazy how "normal" life feels, like did what happen really happen?!
I just said to a friend the other day how incredible life is right now and how terrified I am by that, because I know how quickly that life can be ripped away. Healthy one minute, sick the next... Here one minute, gone the next! The moral of that story is to VALUE life, cherish it and enjoy every single moment! The lives that we live really are precious gifts and nothing is guaranteed!
Every day I struggle with fear and worry and each day it is a battle to see what will win.. Is fear going to rule the day or is HOPE, joy and love?! The second sure does make for a better day :).
My heart overflows with gratitude, gratitude for each day and every minute shared with my three beautiful girls!!!! Gratitude for God and for all of you. Praise God for this life!! A thankful heart sure helps keep those worries at bay.
I just told a patient the other day that I know God's plan is good and I know His will for Addie is perfect. However, with that being said, if His will doesn't line up with my plan than how good can it be... Fully trusting in His plan is hard. That plan is easy to trust if it involves my little girl defying the odds and kicking cancer's butt but if she doesn't than where does that leave me?! I just read the other day to let Go and LET GOD (an amazing Mother's blog who is fighting for her life, prayers to you Jamie, what strength and courage you have, keep fighting)!! What freedom I would feel to let go, Lord help me to fully let Go!!! He loves my sweet Addie Bean even more than I.
I remind myself that we don't have God's wisdom and we can't understand fully the paths He has laid out for us. I also remind myself that wherever those paths lead He will be with us, we are never alone and never forsaken!
Cherish your life, delight in each moment and give Thanks to the Lord for He is good!! Trust in His plan, knowing that someday it will all be clear and someday we will all be together in pure bliss!!
So much love Team Addie.
