So many prayers accompany this day, the days that have lead up to it and the years and years to follow... Please Jesus let this be the last time my sweet girl ever has to fight for her life, let it be the last time she will ever have to be treated for cancer of ANY kind and especially for Neuroblastoma (two words I hate more than anything, cancer and that Nasty N-word)!! Please God let her scans stay clear for an eternity. Please let the toxins used to kill this awful monster not affect the long term health of my precious girl! Most importantly, let this sweet child live a long healthy life abundant in LOVE and JOY!
I have been struggling with so many emotions lately and over the past month knowing this time was near... It is hard for me to even write this post, for fear that the floor is going to once again drop out from under us! Is it really possible for Addie to be done with cancer treatment?! Is it possible that we could live a "normal" life?! It is crazy how scary that new "normal" life is for me to face. The reality is that our future will never be blissfully/ignorantly normal again, because we now know all to well what can and does happen. Unfortunately, Addie's future is accompanied by this awful dark monster called relapse... I have to find a way to get past that fear and not let what could happen ruin what IS happening! I always try and keep my mind focused on how amazingly blessed we are that she is HERE and almost done with treatment, I mean how unbelievably miraculous is that! Praise God!!! However, the devil will forever try to steal my joy and my human tendencies will continue to shake my soul. Thankfully I am NOT alone, it is out of my control and in the hands of the ONE who loves us more than we could ever imagine! This past week was such a blessing (in disguise of course, they can't ever be obvious) and I know the Lord gave us that scan to ease our anxieties and to bring us hope in what the future holds!! He is so good, so faithful! I just have to keep doing my best to focus on His truths and not the devil's ever so convincing lies!
Thank you Jesus for my sweet girl and for her amazing response to therapy. Thank you for allowing me to be her mother! Thank you for these wonderful doctors, nurses, pharmacists and researchers that made this therapy possible! I pray that it will keep my baby cancer free for an eternity! Praise God for our amazing family, friends and followers! We love you Team Addie!
Tubes out Tuesday... I can't even believe it!!!
Please say a special prayer for two little sweethearts, Avery and Leilani. Leilani received a new heart today and Avery is in the fight of her life against cancer. Please Jesus take care of these two little earthly Angels!