Day +28

One minute you are nearing the edge of the woods and the next you find yourself in the heart of it!  Seriously, when is this roller coaster going to end?!  It gets harder and harder to witness Addie struggling on this road to recovery! Praise Jesus for my little fighter and her strong will!!  Watching Addie lie here working to breathe is a reminder of how tough she is... She just pushes through it, refusing to let anything overtake her!!  It makes my heart hurt that I can't help her, physically help her!!  I feel at times so helpless... We as Mothers are designed to protect our children!!  We are supposed to comfort them when they are sick and make everything ALL better!!  The moment that child is born you will do anything for it, sacrifice everything... And here I sit in a hospital room watching my baby girl struggle and there is nothing I can physically do to help her!!  Talk about feeling helpless... But then the Lord steps in and reminds me that I am not alone and I am far from defenseless, with Him all things are possible!!!  What I have the power to do is pray... Pray that He will heal her, comfort her and continue to breathe strength into her little body!!  

When I am weak, He is strong... Thank heavens for this!!  Please Jesus get Addie past this, get her HOME with us... Allow me to be her mother, to raise her and to LOVE her endlessly!! 

Lots of prayers for tonite and into tomorrow... Prayers that her lung function will improve and the fluid in her chest to vanish!!  Prayers that her body will once again be able to maintain itself and regulate the fluid it requires!!  Tomorrow if Addie's lung function has not improved she will have to have a bronchoscopy... This procedure in itself is pretty minimal but because Addie is not a "average" patient everything comes with a heightened risk!!  It will take place in the OR and she will likely have to be intubated once again!  They will get a sample of the fluid in her lungs and determine of there is an infectious component causing all of this!  Everyone is searching for answers and I am just praying it will all go away... That once again He will make her well!!  Please Jesus give these doctors your wisdom, please don't allow there to be anything missed.  Please give us clarity as to what is causing this and what needs to happen to make her better!!  Thank you for always listening Lord Jesus and for the peace you place in my heart!! 

Thank you all for walking along this road with us... For your continual prayers!!  Your loving words fill my heart with hope and love!!! I will say it again... Hands down, best team in town!!  Go Team Addie!

"Do not fear, for I am with you; do not be afraid, for I am your God.  I will strengthen you; I will help you; I will hold on to you with my righteous right hand."

Isaiah 41:10

"I have heard your prayer; I have seen your tears.  Look, I will heal you."

2 Kings 20:5